She's the smoke
She's dancin' fancy pirouettes
Swan diving off of the deep end
Of my tragic cigarette
She's steam
Laughing on the windowpanes
The never-ending swaying haze
Oh, that ever smiling maze
Oh, that ever smiling maze
Ballet

Everything's gone missing
I've lost more songs to floods
I can't prove this makes any sense
but I sure hope that it does
Perhaps
I was born with curiosity

And oh, how the piano knows
The piano knows something I don't know
It counts the stars,
While i search high and low
For these musical notes.

I was born with curiousity.
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This weekend has been amusing, due to the numerous numbers to 'spoonerisms' made by a funny few. And candid facts[almost shocking] about certain people.

1. "Oh my god. Did you know that there really isnt such a thing as 'nine in the AFTERNOON'? I just found out myself" -J, 8:31pm Friday

2. "I made a contribution to my online journalism course. I changed my font colour to orange." - Claudia, online at 11:12pm, friday

3. "We're playing boypart now." Whoops. Sharon actually meant BAYPORT.

4. Sharon also watches NARUTO. or Naturo, depending on how her tongue might slip.

5. '"Let me give you professional advice from a learned individual here Stacy. Drop out of school, get a job in a bar. You're not the studying type." -Uncle Richard.

6. "Er, we have to ask Mister Bey first." -Natasha's little mistake on the gender of our CCA teacher. Guaranteed to give you stitches.

7. "I love my art, i love my band and i just deal with the rest of the shite that comes along in life." -Patrick.

8. "Chhchhchhchhchhhchhhccchh." -Jennifer imitating a particluarly annoying LEECH.

9. "After all this, i'm going home to sh*t all these[foods] out." -Sarah's loud speech on her plan of bodily functions, in front of half the extended family at sheri's birthday celebration.

10. "I'd become a cop just for the donuts." -Anne, revealing a reassuring career option to a placid few.


Early saturdaymornings never agreed with me, and i've got the eyebags to show it.

Went out with NAS and sharon afterwards to look for the band tie. Which took like, twentyminutes. Sheesh all the way for that. haha.


NAS killed a leopard for that pair o' pumps.


Weird PRAWN necklace.



Ended eating overpriced potato salad and hot chocolate and gloria jean's.


Was on the team again for sunday GARRH. quite horrendous beginning. haha Mel was laughing off the stage the whoole way, which triggered more laughter from Nick and Jen.

Birthday lunch for sheri at some prima roatating hotel.
And this reminded me of social studies lessons. Containation or something.



So it was an absolute mistake to order one of EVERYTHING on the menu.
Its concert week!
And i won't be able to concentrate on lessons at all till thursday night. XD
hopefully, everything goes well with our shoes business, before some people literally bite our heads off over a pair of pumps.

Oh! Gravity,
Why can't we,
seem to keep it together?
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Say goodbye to the longest week of the school year. YET.

We havent done our SHOES yet, and i think many of our class population is immune to the incessant cries of displeased customers[oh, and the hollers of pure fury as well]. No one seems to care about it much, so i shall spend my saturday afternoon painting stars on shoes with people who actually care about customer rights and sourcing for band ties.

Longest week?!
Everyone was getting sick, probably due to stress/trauma/a new found disease called physictitis. Captain's ball was funn but made us absolutely exhausted for the rest of the day. Rusty joints from not exercising results in AMAZING muscle cramps. Chemistry test on thursday was absolutely horrible! Usually, as many have already blatantly pointed out, i don't study much. However, was caught in a panic after realizing i have so much to catch up on.

Hopefully, i will pass both physics and chem test.
Finally finished decorating my picture mosiac/collage/whatever you call one of these thingies.



Stephanie's Drama-Os set. XD cute much?
Another thing: Its just one after another encounter with ms martens! First the inspirational talk, then watching the skit with her, taking pictures, and having a lecture about Social Studies TYS! Uncanny.

thursday went to Queensway shopping centre with sharon and NAS to look for our band ties. It was amazing we didnt get lost on the long and tumolous JOURNEY. Of all places to go eh?

Question: Why is marilyn monroe's head sticking out of the plains of bedok interchange?

Saw a shirt which looks like SAL!

Sleeping on the way home.l the bus journey was more then one hour home. GAH.
Today band was alright XD except for DHOOM omg. sucks. put me somewhere where i can't make any mistakes, like shaker of some cymbal shite. Its waaay to stressful and my frills don't go.

Fatigue is creeping up on me, so goodnight all.

What disturbing news.
If it would be so easy as to forget,
I would do it immediately.
But now you know,
our scars make us who we are.

Oh star fall down on me
Let me make a wish upon you
Hold on, let me think
Think of what I'm wishing for

Wait, don't go away
Just not yet
Cause I thought,I had it.
But I forget.

And I won't let you fall away,
From me
You will never fade
And I won't let you fall away
From me
You will never fade away from me

And now I let my dreams consume me,
And tell me what to think
But hold on,Hold on
What am I dreaming?

Oh star fall down on me.
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OMG this is so hilarious. Apparently kor swee cheng super-imposed all of our NLCC actors' faces on the real Last supper picture. Well done, i must say XD

Today was oh-so-dreary.
Motivational talk by ms martens was pretty interesting. i agree to the whole studying at 1am to 5am thing! Starting a small study group with xq and joy a.k.a the INSOMIACS. And then she said something of three dogs attacking her and blood spurting out, and mr poh had the sudden inspiration to heave himself up on the teacher's table, and show us his dog-bitten THIGH on the visualiser?! Gladys was like 'OMG! take your thigh down! take your thigh down!' and SAL's very PREDICTABLE reaction of 'Sore eyes! Nuuuu!'.

Nothing like an exciting episode to brighten up your day.

So tired GAH. the whole day. going through the motiooons.
And then our cap ball match after school. Absolutely hilarious. Mathea is a complete diplomat. We, by default, got into the top FOUR. luck is on our side this time, oh yeah. Went back home and slept for two straight hours so as to escape from the annoying noise from my sister and her friends from next door.

Physics test tmr. Errh.

bought a paramore tee shirt from hottopic!! What a hefty sum when you're low on the moolah here.

Sweet si?

Tonight I watch the lights
go out in your house
Wondering how I could get so deep
And you could still get to sleep
In vain I blame my trembling on the cold air
And I can't hide that I relied on you
Like yellow does on blue

Atlanta started raining on me
And teenage love was underground
Tonight I break the surface
Atlanta started raining on me
On me.

-Something Corporate 'She Paints me Blue'
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Monday blues are abundant here.
Then we go back to school a.k.a major suckfest, except you're not supposed to say that because school helps you to get a degree and become successful, career-driven women of the next generation. That, and somebody comes along and sues your sorry butt for letting the words escape from the tip of your tongue.

But it was pretty alright.
Thank god for witty english classes and Ripple ice-cream. Went to J's house. Really so sorry for not helping you with guitar classes! Really swarmed up at the moment. Haha... took back my ash-grey which has been there for a few weeks. He wasnt at home, but it has come to the point where i can walk inside the house and not feel intimidated by his mom. Little actions like opening the fridge and taking a slice of cake says a million things.

Milled around the house trying to do physics while messaging gen. I told her i ate a tomato as well.

i also managed to organize my shelves!

See there's the necklace/bracelet drumsticks holders[INNOVATIVE HUH.], the travis barker set which I HAVE NEVER USED AHHEM. and all the mangaka stuffed behind the CD stack. two alarm clocks hanging precaciously over the edge of the shelf and the plastic mouse with a US dollar. And perhaps the average dust mote or two just hanging around.

Fine, maybe i didnt exactly tidy things up.

Gotta get some new music. the cardigans and maroon five's Live tracks!!! Someone find me the end of the rainbow please!!

And better luck at least, with the rest of the week.
Physics and chemistry to cram for!
You don't know how tough it is sitting next to a partial genius disguised as an absolute imbecile. The pressure is enough to kill!

A conference with the KF bunch:

J: Maybe i'm athletically-challenged, but i do have my moments.

Me: Can we change the subject. Something non-justiny.

Clauds: Be my guest. In fact i was just about to tell you about one of my latest ventures in student council... etc, etc.

Patrick: [five minutes later.] Uh huh. Yes. Yeah.

Clauds: ...and then he actually said to me that... etc etc.

J: [ten more minutes]Ya huh. I see. interesting.

Clauds: ...and then an octopus emerged from the suckling pig and strangled the suits of armour at the ball, ruining the party.

Me: Oh. yes.

Clauds: YOU GUYS ARENT EVEN LISTENING!!!

ah well.

round and round

You can make cities burn and skies fall,
with your magnificant play of words,
The world is falling,
but the music is playing on.

Bring it to me.

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Good Friday weekend has certainly been pretty good.
So much for the resolution to catch up on chemistry and physics this weekend. this very RAINY weekend.




So thursday was alright.

Study study, cram, unbearable lessons. Everyone was SLEEPING during physics class because mr quek was absolutely incomprehensable, due to his dont-care-imma-go-like-a-steam-train-because-i-want-to-finish-the-syllabus-quickly attitude. And he scolded me and SAL for discussing something about physics. Oh the unfairness of it all.

Still, there are better things in life to worry about. or ENJOY. eg. STEP UP 2.



Apart from the normal school day and a particularly stressful add math test which allows us the plesant experience of tearing out a handful of our own hair, chinese orals was in short, quite PHENOMENAL. uh huh. and not in the good way.

Actually it was more of an absolute JOKE. Looking at the passage was sort of like looking at an italian script. And ms shuting[i must say, the rather unfortunate teacher who overtook the task of simply being my examiner] was pretty much emotionless and stoned throughout the entire oral.

I had to RUSH to meet amanda and janna for step up 2. Yes, i was more or less a sight to behold, running down orchard road in school you, and up six flights of escalators. Hitting everyone with my rotund and heavy school bag along the way. Amanda and janna seemed to find it particularly amusing. Still, made it for the movie!

It was absolutely MIND-BLOWING. really. Not what i expected it to be at all XD The dance moves were totally, quote unquote janna, HOTT. ROBERT hoffman [Justin, or SLASH nick, from she's the man] was wonderful. What IS it with these multi-talented, actors/dancers/singers nowadays? They can do anything?! Which leaves us genetically lower-life forms nothing else to do with our future but be holed up in a tiny cell typing up columns of numbers. Yes, interesting future career prospect.


Tsk. Enjoying fries outside the california fitness gym. LOL.

Next day had TUITION in the morning.
In the afternoon went with SAL and janna to catch August rush at Lido! Met joy and xq in the train LOL. Janna is such a kutu, she was late. SAL should not be allowed out to public; she is a hindrace that anyone is liable to.

Made it to lido with ten minutes to spare, only to find that august rush was sold out! GAH. Janna was depressed. COMPROMISED by watching step up 2 again. I know, what a waste of money to be watching the same movie, and it being a public holiday. but it was just so darn great! SAL was all up for it, but janna needed some wheedling. And she finally crumbled. muahahaha.

It was funn.
Went to wheelock place after the movie and met at fish and co. for lifenet dinner. Oh my, all the young kids kept jumping around/running out of the restaurant/touching the ginormous hanging plastic swordfish. meh.

After dinner went to STARBUCKS to fool around. Mark had to crawl under three chairs at the outside deli for his dare

Saturday was easter prac and dinner with my ex maid before she departs for her hometown.

Easter sunday!
uncle william a.k.a Jesus, aunty judith a.k.a bleeding woman.

The last supper. LOL
Kelvin the gungho disciple.



whoops school now. ciao!

I've gone for too long living like i'm not alive.

First, an opening promotion on our Class Entrepeunership PROJECT! customized shoes.

We came up with two more designs that were different from the rest, which we were pretty much beads, sequins and flowers. These are for people who would like to add some COLOUR to their lives XD

Skyline, by Emilia.
there is a maximum for orders, due to the time consumption for this design.

Front and back of STARSTRUCK. who else?

Go to http://www.stop-stare-buy.blogspot.com/ to make your orders!


And now we have the church camp update. Woah long post ahead. So instead of disturbing the absolute BEAUTY of the pictures, i shall let them speak for themselves. Mostly.

So Wednesday dawn was interrupted by the shrill cries of two consecutive alarm clocks so that a could drag my groggy self of the bed and pry sheri's ass of the sheets as well. Not a great start. My bed never had a 'right side' to start of with, so its more than less that i start off the morning in a bad mood. the torrid hour of Five thirty am does nothing but the worsen that fact. Managed to get to tanah merah ferry terminal unscathed, tho tired and in the moochy-moochy kinda mood.

LUCY IS BACK FROM INDO! and then going back to indonesia the very next day. Lol. poor her.

At tanah merah ferry terminal.
Well, at least SOMEONE was happy on that day. Soon enough, we got talking and the mood lifted up just a teeny- bit. I'll sheer, just give me an hour or two to get over the 'BIZZATCH-ness'.

The ferry came! It was alright in the beginning, when everyone was handing around loads of Jack and Jill crisps and seaweed packets, but ten minutes into the boat ride, our stomachs were lurching. It was horrendous. Like, hell on rocking water waves.

The seasick trio.
Tried to sleep to the sounds of Taking Back Sunday, but it got so bad that my heart was about to fall right out of my butt. And it didnt help that mel's head was lolling half-conciously, moaning. She said the word 'seasick' like how you might say 'dog vomit', which was very much apt and potrayed my stomach's emotions to the tee. So the solution = the open deck!

Introducing: Stella, the walking mama shop. And ze solid rock.

The ominous clouds floating at the back should have been a good sign of whats to come, but couldnt bear to leave the deck for hell downstairs.







As said by claudia: A lot of wind and gloomy, overcast skies can make anybody look very good.

Perhaps with the exception of Mel. LOL.

Arrived at the bintan port place. And you thought singapore waters were filthy!

Took a one and a half hour bus ride to our Loola camp RESORT place. Slept alot. rainwater kept splashing through this open slots at the top of the bus which WEREN'T windows. You'd think that even in a deserted, rainy island such as Bintan, they would have thought of putting a glass sheet on holes in the bus. But noo.
First impression of the GREAT loola camp[partially the fault of jie leng, who exaggerated the EXCELLENT living quarters and even BETTER hygiene standards.]: Rainy, gloomy, and cold as hell.
Me Stella and Mel were bunk mates, with Ains staying with us. The hut was fine i suppose, though they only had bare bulbs that could turn on at night. Fought for the bottom bunk :] like little kids, which i lost to Mel of course!

Then we had lunch. Started to rain even more, so kayaking was a huge no no. Played teambuilding activites for the our team. Oh yes, our team was called The Winning Team. Lol.

Kayaking. The rain decided let up a tiny bit for us to get all the boats out and to roam around the huge expanse of sea. Paired up with sheri as it was younger youth+older youth ratio. Im telling you, she is a worse Kayak-er than SARAH ANNE LEO. yes, believe me. We got mauled by a few marauding mangroves because of her poor kayaking skills and the coordination problems, which made her paddle crack against mine umpteen times.

So to sum up the day, we basically had alot of indoor activities in the games area[or rather the large sandpit.] Burying people in sand never gets old.

Ended with a drowsy devotion and playing of cards at our hut. Getting drunk on coke and high on potato sticks while dishing out royal flushes is as good as it gets.

DAY 2.

woke up to find the sea gone.

And miles of dry shore. Literally.

I think it was probably the morning fumes that convinced our very confused brains to walk all the way to the island, nearly a kilometre away. Don't forget, its a kilometre of mud slush, sharp thorns, unsuspecting crabs and a whole lotta excited BOYS.
This really cool rock mound that is completely covered at night due to the tide. Has words carved onto it by previous Loola settlers.

Getting the octopus.
Sea anemones.

The sea anemone in the shape of a mushroom. i think.
I bet you have never seen a sea cucumber this gross. If it is, actually a SEA cucumber, as labelled by the twins. Still, it is disgusting just holding it.

This is the octopus. I still frimly stand in my belief that is is a squid, tho.
The obstacle course is always a fun place to hang out in the midst of all the hectic activities. Especiall since luki's spectacular fall on the first day. and mine, soon to come afterwards

More fishing attempts because of the rain.

Boom netting was awesome btw. Unfortunately, no pics of that. however, it was freezing cold. the trip there left us all in ice cubes. Just in case you guys are wondering, boomnetting is where you jump off the three-storey high ship and plunge into this ten-foot long net connected to the boat. Somewhat, submerged in water of course. it is relatively hard to explain, but it was fun. Freezing!

And candlefight at night. I swear im never gonna play it with the younger youth ever again. Although i should be patient, kind and reasonable, there is nothing i can say to excuse the rashness and cheating nature each and EVERY one of them carried. Candle fight, no matter how you see it, never got worse then this.

Well, everything's going to change from now on, i suppose.

Watching shooting stars outside our porch. our, hut porch, that is. Somehow, hut 4 has become somewhat of a meeting place for all the youth leaders and older youths, while hut 2 is where all the younger kids gather to play Bullshit[to all narcisstic older readers, this is no meant in the literal sense, but is actually a popular, never-ending card game].

All was well till Nicholas came along and split the supporting log that was carrying all of our lives on its rickety splints. We all screamed and rushed five feet away from the huge log and the now-caving-in bridge part. Even Nichols was quite shaken from his foot sinking into the bridge and the sound on splitting plank, because he snapped out of his monotone voice long enough so say 'Woaah. that was scary.' Right outside our hut somemore!

Well, its not often you get a message from god that its time to lose weight.

Disbanded the 'party and went to sleep under those holey moquito nets.

DAY 3

Friday began with a burst of sunshine. It felt sooo good after the two days of pheriphal rain and horrible weather. Sat outside in the sun, motionless, for an hour before walking lazily to the eating hut to scoff down some chum[Yes, the barbarian language comes along with the camp.]. Celebrated the weather by reading Sunshine, an all-time favourite/comfort read throughout the entire dat.

Aunty Carolyn makes sure we all eat breakfast.

By this time, i'm sick to death of fish and wishing for something else. As you have guessed, fish is our staple diet here in this deserted island.

The dinner cart of DOOM. harbringer of FISH. and more fish.

and as we have not have enough of the f-word, Timothy tries to get more from the shallow waters.
The mentos company should change their name to the very person who brought six boxes of this product to the camp and polished it off in three days.
First activity of day three was rock climbing! helluva fun. walking to the place at first on the dry shore.

Alex, the extremely entertaining clown kept our spirits up throughout the whole camp XD

Uncle william climbs the L-shaped wall. Champion rock-climber! **no face.
Mel ices her hurt foot from one-too-many-plunges at boom netting.

This disgusting mushroom thing was stuck on the bridge. Kelvin swore he saw it BEAT. Like a heart. *shudder what a horrific thought.

The guy repairing the log that nicholas split the previous night. It must be a rather common occurance, as he looked pretty experienced hacking away at the four-metre long piece of oak. So i suppose it isnt all your weight Nick

Went flying fox! it was deeeaad funn. Whoo. And right into the water, exactly how flying fox is supposed to be! Alex was so light that his legs were barely gracing the water's edge, and the people could hardly reach him to yank him down. Being on a deserted island also means the equipment is 1) few and far between, like the rockwall doubling for a flying fox post, and 2) and everything, and i mean everything is ancient. Thus, i almost suffered a vertigo attack whilst climbing up the rickety ladder. FOUR STORIES OF IT.

Trudged back to camp looking exhausted. Wet and hungry. Was bathing halfway when the ALREADY SPOILT shower head came to a few drops, and absolutely stopped. was quite mortified due to the fact that i was in the soaping stage. Screamed like a stuck pig till a top-less daniel came over and said the water tank RAN OUT OFF WATER.

First thought: OMG.

Painstakingly allowed the last few drops of water wash away the soap before drying up the best as i could. Walked out to many people complaining. Jie ains walked out with soad sups dripping down her leg and Alex decided he was going to bathe at the outside tap, instead of waiting for the maintenance people to refill the tank. Sheri and mark Tang joined in after brief hesistations.

Gearing up for campfire.

No pics for campfire LOL.

Had the same old thing.

FISH.

Slept.

DAY FOUR.

praise and worship in the morning. Did obstacle course which our team was great at HAHA. but there were a few unparticipative people in the WINNING team, so los out at the oher challenges. it was fun tho...

Nick's jacket fell from the porch's handles and nearly into the waters. Alex's desperate attempt to retrieve it.

Nick convinced me luki and mel to plunge into the water from the bridge itself rather then walking the eternal bridge of rickety doom. Filthy but strangely cooling. Sunburnt from the past two days of constant heat. Bintan needs a contrast of different weathers mon.


Packed up after playing volleyball and trying archery. Leaving Loola resort.

Talk about bad english.
And goodbye to our very hospitable camp guide! Being the only one who could speak a reasonable amount of the english language, which made conversing actually possible between the two parties.
Grand canyon - bintan version.

stopped by this 'mall' to stock up on junk food and medicated oil for ainsley [LOL!!!!] before setting of for the port where it all started.
Tapioca chips. Bbq flavour.
Skyline!
This cute boy which stayed with us for four days at loola. His name is Jules or Julian or something like that. A tad enthusaistic and unresponsive tho.

Waited at the holding room for an HOUR. kelvin's boarding pass flew from his pocket into the sea, so he was stuck outside, waiting for them to give him another pass. Was feeling extremely tired from the lack of sleep. Was almost glad when the ferry finally drifted to indonesian shores to pick us up.

Tim complete the rubix cube!! like finally. Well, on the path ot being a greater man.

Tried to sleep, but due to some noisy morons[shall not mention names, like LUKI NICHOLAS AND ALEX.] were laughing like hyenas behind. Mel stel and me were DYING.

Got home at around eleven.

Bed felt like the most awesome thing EVER.

Sunday morning EARLY can you believe it?! Jen came back from Johannesberg, Africa, and got me a fishbone necklace! thank you XD however, the result of landing at eight am in the morning and coming for church>>>>

Went to kino afterwards to pick up some manga and ordered a robin mckinley book. SIX WEEKS. haha having wacky conversations and spotting guys with weird hair.


The school week passed pretty quickly. haha.

Hmmm.

Lots of shoe dilemmas and irresponsible people.

Really tired now, so will blog about the rest tmr.

long post huh?