There goes my hero, He's ordinary.

Ups and downs,
we are in for a ride
and love is our coaster.
Where are we going here?
Cause i don't seem to know.

So don't force a smile dear,
You know that
there are better days to come,
Put on that hat and we'll go to places,
Yes we'll go to places.

____________________________________________

Hey all :) Really hoped everyone enjoyed the festive season(and also the long holidays for those currently in school!)

CNY has always been one heck of a party in my family because well, of the tons of relatives. While i do try my best not to be money-minded(but hell, who isn't?) this does equal to more of the moolah, so there! So we bear with the uncomfortable clothes and the awkward silences and the even worse relatives in exchange for a little pocket money. Simple enough system, aye?

This year wasn't much different, except with the fact that Grandma has been different ever since being hospitalized. And that affected the festive spirit alot, and its been difficult for everyone to deal with it as well. But with God's grace, i believe that he can heal Gran and help us overcome this together :)




Today out of sheer desperation, decided to go for a jog with Princess Justin. Was quite hilarious. Well it wasn't really a jog. More like alot of brisk walking and the occasional run in short bursts plus talking all sorts of nonsense.

Also, he tripped on a log five seconds after i said 'Hey, watch out for that log.'

Well, he's going to be heading back to aussie this friday so wish you best of luck! We better hang out more next time! See ya in April/July :)

Oh and on the very exciting list of what's happening on friday, POSTING OF SCHOOLS. Gack. Ah well i guess its about time i got off my lazy arse and actually do something other than sit in front of this lousy screen. Hell, the computer chair has my ass groove on it. And handwriting has been reduced to nothing more than mere chicken scratch after the lack of writing.

Goodnight all, have a swell week! :)

Circles.

You say the sweetest things,
And i can't keep my heart from singing,
along to the sound of your song,
my stupid feet keep moving

To this four-four beat,
I'm in time with you,
With this four-four beat
I would die for you.

(someone stop this...)

I've gone too far
To get back from here
But you don't have a clue,
You don't know what to do,
to me.

Won't someone stop this song,
So i won't sing along,
Can someone stop this song,
So i won't sing.

Paramore, Lovesick Melody.

____________________________________________

Man i must have really been crazy to wake up at 7am today to do this ridiculous treetop hike/walk thing with the other mad mad mad people. I swear, they must be crazy about hiking because why else would they spend a perfectly good saturday morning walking 10clicks while we could be sleeping in?!

Simply COULD NOT get out of it because the whole world seemed to be at parkway(including Gen & a hella lot of SACians.) yesterday doing last minute new year shopping (as i was. oops.) and bumped into Mel. Who made me go.

So three hours later and a lot of sweat, i am proud to say I've seen nothing but trees. Oh and more trees.

Oh and see the monkeys getting jiggy with each other too. Although they were rather shy and stopped doing all that when we started pointing and hooting. My my, we're almost as barbaric as them.




So after all that jazz went to Nick's to shower and then jamming. It was pretty awful. Jen told me something about my voice and now i'm horrified. I NEVER REALISED and now i have to fix it fix it fix it.

_________________________________________

Thank god all the new year shopping is done. Well mostly. Didn't get much clothes this year because of the lack of time, mostly. Although all the new year food will assure my whole family has rolls on their tummy in a couple of weeks.

The strong wind is messing up all my post-its on the wall and making me depressed! Nothing messes with my post its!




Paramore's not coming to Singapore this year either. Meh.

Go on, make my day.

He believes he's raw passion,
and you can see it,
written in colours,
across the spans of his back.
He says I'm your tracing board,
and while he sleeps
i paint his features to life.

So goodnight,
Because i can't wait
to write him into my songs,
and to etch you in pastel pink.
Goodnight,
The artist comes to life.

____________________________________

Bonjour mes amis!

So on tuesday i finally got around to having some fun. And who best to hang out with but the usual bums! It was a shame i didn't get to hang out with them the last time (was at youth camp! now i remember.) but i bet this time was loads more fun :)

Of course Emilia had to bring the rockband set because she's emi and also very addicted to rockband(as we all were. well, sort off.) so we played rockband till dawn. Literally too. And all the crazy stuff like walking out to grab some mickey D's at five am in the morning and getting scared by some crazy man dancing around the tree.

Top moments include screaming in no pitch whatsoever singing to the old pop tunes, laughing at everyone's ass groove on the couch and knocking out on the cold cold floor at seven in the morning.

So much as it sounds lame, it was absolutely wicked and we all had a fantastic time. XP


A picture of a picture!

Nicole is mad. she tried to kill me!

Yeap so a perfect sleepover was ruined by this ridiculous glass fiasco. We were packing up and shifting back furniture when this glass piece slid off the table and broke. Well, broke is an understatement. More like, shattered into a million pieces. Anyway it was bloody ridiculous because it wasn't even attached to the table in any way. AT ALL.

They charged us 200bucks for it. can you imagine? We were all ready to murder that pompous ass of a man who totally ripped us off. But whatever, crap like that happens.

Slept for a couple of hours before heading off to nick's place. Well i won't say anything here because i can't. But Jennifer was showing her man-face around the table and looked like she was about to jump on someone. Ah she's mad like that. FINISH YOUR SENTENCES.





Need. to. go. new. year. shopping. NEED MORE MONEH. so broke right now that its not even funny.

Finished season 2 and the first ep of season 3 comes out today! Hot indian half-spanish boy (THERE SARAH, HAPPY NOW.) wheeeeeee. Cassie reminds of Stargirl. Waaaay too eccentric and stuff like that.



Soooo. Nothing else to say in this space, except. GOODNIGHT. Till next time.

Sign me up for the storm.

Enough of this incoherency,
It's the monologue man come to stay.
Are you afraid?
Cause he knows the lines,
and you're stuttering through the words,
tripping over the verses.

Oh doesn't he make you feel,
so inadequate?
At least he can show us the way,
with his marvelous say in words.
But doesn't he make you feel shy?

To say the truth out,
to the monologue man.
____________________________________


Oh bollocks.

I can't believe this but i. am. so. addicted. to. skins.

It is a low-class, low-budget, disgusting, substance-less, show. But it is also vair addictive.

I hate you Sarah G, for getting me into this series too much swearing and drugs and obscene bedsheets too much info! ahhem so yes. And i also hate sid for ditching cassie to go with that &%$#&@ Michelle dammit, but i digress. (But poor Cas!!!!)

Want to see hot indian boy in season three!

_________________________________________

A couple of days i stood next to a bunch of shallow-minded creaturesah lians in the MRT and their conversation went something like that.

AL 1: Ohmigod. Did choo hear that new pawamoh song. What is it called ah??
AL 2: OH I KNOW. Uh... Decode right!
AL 3: I saw the video. That Ed-wad ah... he's so like, HAWT LAH.
AL 2: YAH LOH. and then he fly from tree to tree carrying Bellahh. Damn cool luh.
AL 3: Don't get me started on his hair okay. *siiigghhhh. proceeds on to touch extremely layered hair, with dreamy/faraway look in her blue-contacts filled eyes.
AL 1: I can't wait for the next movie to come out.... Twilight was already sooo good man!
AL 2: Me too. I really lubbed the New Eclipse book!

Um. New Eclipse?! If you're such a great fan of your oh-so-sexy-Robert-Pattison-whom-flits-from-oak-to-oak, at least bother to remember the name of the books.

And pawamoh?! what. an. insult.



Anyway, tomorrow's the chalet at Aranda. We're finally gonna order the merch! And do all sorts of nut-sy stuff! Which means i have to finish Skins Season 1 by tomorrow as well. or. i. will. die.

So that's life now. See ya in a bit! :)

The Electric Prunes save the day.

You were going so well,
writing out the stories all by yourself,
so i rewarded you with the back of my mind,
my oh so wondrous mind,
but what did you do?

_____________________________________

Hello midnight.

Results came out yesterday and of course it was a little more than dramatic. Putting that aside tho, it was a good time to catch up with people. Congrats to Janna (who i was was unfortunate enough to sit next to, since she had eight. bloody. points.), whose mom was less than enthusiastic when i phoned her.

Me: AUNTIE!! YOUR DAUGHTER JUST SCORED EIGHT POINTS! WHOOO
Janna: (half-sniffling because she's janna like that.) *sniff sniff... Did you just call my mother?
The Mother: Huh hello?! what's this? huh?

Hilarious. and congrats to everyone else who got the results they wanted. Especially clarebear, oh my sweet cows. Who got fifteen points. I swear the air was thick with flying pigs that day :) You punk.

I was kinda disappointed but thinking about it now, i just gotta thank god for my results and be happy. Cause god has a plan for all of us! So CJC with its extremely bad reputation, here i come! I guess i always had that soul-bond to catholic education institutions, even if they are all the way in um, toa payoh. Which is a totally different region to me, by the way. Thank god that people like Nicole, Liz, Sally, Emi and clare will be going there, so i won't feel like such a goosegog in my own school :) Thanks mom & all my friends for the support!



Today spent the day in church going over jazz rhythms and writing some riffs down with the lads and BOY was it frustrating. Its not easy at all. But i guess the best part was coming up with our new band name. OHMIGOD BOYS ARE SO SUCKY AT COMING UP WITH NAMES.

i came up with The Electric Prunes & JuiceBox & The Lalalas (as opposed to The Yeah Yeah Yeahs) & a whole bunch of other names but they all said it sucked! Instead Nick came up with the worst name in band-naming-dom. Here it comes.

MIKE STANDS AND GUITAR AMPS.


i kid you not. Srsly. Ditto the Nick-tons. Or Nightmare Cinema.

But now its pretty much between the Touchtones or Groove Boulevard (BO-RING, i know. The electric prunes rock so much more. but hell, a name does not make a band.)


Supper with Mel and jie ains at some ulu-place and it was fun :)

Anyway i just had one of those life-changing moments in my life because me and randi are going to see JASON MRAZ LIVE IN CONCERT ON MARCH FIFTH.

epic. I know. Hey he's no Paramore, but now we can see him sing smexily from the side of his mouth and wear fedora hats and all that jazz. Although the fact that he is doing that vair-gay-sticking-out-pinky-thing that Luki always does makes me pretty darn disturbed. None the less.

Now the only problem is raising 145 buckeroos without motherdear finding out. (money tree, why did you shrivel up and die last year, oh you were my only hope!)

waking up tomorrow at the crack of dawn to go to Nick's house for goodness knows what. Well, noon, but its EARLY.

for one night only.

Really,
this was nothing more
than i thought it was.

But you,
oh how you
manage to tread on autumn leaves,
and deliver the script
which such certainty.

____________________________________

I don't know how to feel. Listless, maybe.



This week had been a mish-mash of various activites, and it never seems to end. And i swear, the jetlag is becoming more annoying. I hate waking up at two in the afternoon feeling like an absolute hobo (yes, I believe I've hit rockbottom.), although i must admit i rather enjoy the 4am nights. Starworld shows the best half-hour hits in the dead of the night, and tell me, who does not love old reruns on seinfeld? and Friends, According to Jim etcetc.

Its a pity that this NLOFC or NLFOC or a conference of some sort had to happen this week when class chalet was on. Felt absolutely bummed out that i had to miss sleeping over as well as the 'big' second night at Aloha Loyang, and attended the conference at night instead. The first day was wicked tho. We totally rock at mahjong yo.

Also, played a small acoustic set at Jake's, and the crowd was good :) Wheeee. Although J totally tripped over the wires and his head almost got stuck in the ice bucket. If there's someone clumsier than me, its gotta be him. I really love playing at smaller gigs because of the aussome people, besides the fact that there are less indie snobs at mainstream haters to leap at your throat if we even PLAY a BLG hit.

Anyway, it was really good. I miss that.

Oh here's a shot of us celebrating gerry's surprise. Seventeen is such a useless age(i reckon we should just skip that one and go to fabulous eighteen!), but we all have to go through it. And totally rocking the karaoke place at Kallang. HILARIOUS.




And also found out results were coming out next monday. Thus, the listless-ness.

Today on the way to meeting some church folks, a bunch of dudes wearing ACJC tees came on the train. I guess i kinda realised how much i wanted to get into that school at that point of time.

But as the saying goes, this is all but a 'pipe dream'. Besides, the release of JAE's cut-off points pretty much shook me back to the real world. This feeling of anxiety is the worst. Sometimes i think if i had just thought DSAing when it was the right time and thinking ahead when i should have, things would be more different.

But i guess now there's no other choice but to open up to other options and just pray. Really really hard.



************major moping shite over.


Its time to hit the snooze button. The LAST meeting is held tomorrow at RELC, and i have to wake up at daybreak just to get there in time. Aww cow's bum. Goodnight all, have a good weekend :)

Really, we started nothing!

I recall,
but what's the use when you don't,
not anymore
you don't even care.

but to speak the truth,
i can still hear the waves.
they are so much like you,
can't help but to hear the echoes,
pulsate.

They give but take so much more,
wash me away into your thoughts,
my ship is sinking in these silver waters,
but there you are,
holding my heart in your hands.

Sometimes,
i can still hear the waves.

3/1/09
________________________________________________

Ahoy mates.

Just came back from switzerland yesterday. It was, quote unquote a rather promising actress, SUPER COOL (lieeekk yeah!). Quite literally too. Plunging temperatures every morning. I swear we looked like boiled cabbages toddling around in our seven layers of thick clothing, i kid you not.

Well probably the most unforgettable memory was falling off the sledding track and landing in a heap of rather solidified heap of snow and getting rescued by a French family because i didn't know how to um, navigate the sled. I thought i had died right then and descended to a vair white heaven.

And also, the fact that it snowed BOTH on Christmas & on New Years. That was aussome.

But i'll post about that another time when i get all the pictures from emi. I barely took any cause there were about five cameras competing for some snapping action and i didn't have an ounce of motivation to shoot away. Blogger picture hosting is a hassle anyway.




So anyway, although it may seem hella late, i hope that everyone had a groovy christmas & an even better new year! I can't believe its 2009! Life is moving way to fast for me right now and i'm sure everyone feels that same. Soon we will all sweep through school years and work years and then into middle-age years and old-hag days. Egad.

FOR 2009, i suppose a new set of guidelines or what the conventional blogger would call RESOLUTIONS, would be handy. And good ones too, not the half-hearted and absolutely impossible LAWS we make up to make us feel better.

Here we go.

1. I will not freak out and have a nervy b on the day of the O level results like how i can already see half our class crying and suanning and all that drama. Instead i will be the epitome of calm and accept things as they come.

Lest the result be something horrific then maybe i will shed a tear of two.

2. I will grow as a musician and songwriting aspects. Practise more and expand my listening range to the more boring different genres of classical jazz etc etc.

3. I will have an aussome time in JC/Poly or any other educational institute that will be bold enough to take me up. Join a totally new CCA(and hopefully excel innit), make loads of friends and not be a 24/7 slacker :)

4. Save. Money.

5. Clear out the 1049 emails in my hotmail account. Especially all the lame friendster/facebook/myspace ones that i never ever read and are just there to clog up networking space.

6. Not lose touch with any of the great friends I've managed to make in these four years of life in the Lesbian Academy SACSS. You guys have brought a lot of brilliant times together and i never want to lose that. Sacians ftw!

7. Make it to the Hillsong Conference with the rest of the renegades and have a funkay time there! Also to grow as a church band. And think up of better names for our jazz pieces.

8. Not to die or get severely injured on the Mount KK climbing trip, or worse, back out at the last minute in fear of remote death. Besides I've already ordered the hiking stick and gotten the right hiking shoes for it so WASTE NOT.

9. After nearly a year of not being in one, get a good band together & get back to regular jam sessions.

10. Lastly, to grow closer to God & Family.





To finish off this post, i just want to thank everyone (the usual bums, 4.8 a.k.a the most united, krossfire, Church people and family) for just being in my life. All of you guys are special and have just given me the best times of my life. Some of the best memories i think i will ever have happened in 2008 so thank you all so much! :) I will put up exclusive shoutouts in the next post if i can!

Its 2am now so see you all in a bit!



This damned jetlag won't let me sleep.