whispers hello, I miss you quite terribly.

This is where I belong
On a dark October morning
Wrapped up in sheets and
fleeting
moments

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This whole sodding week has been pretty much bollocks. I hate to say that I haven't done as well as I would have liked for CTs, when it brings the dull introduction into the 'U' world (thanks math, you've done it again.)

Today we went to the Mandai Crematorium to have final service for Wesley and say bye. It was so sad to see Aunty Vivien sobbing and collapsing and my dad crying. It made me think how I could have done more, to prevent him from jumping to his death at eighteen, when he had so much to offer to the world.

I hate feeling helpless and useless.